You know when you feel defensive? I do. I know when I feel hot and aggravated and find myself forcefully and repeatedly “defending” whatever it is I think is right or how things should be. Sometimes it feels like a last-ditch effort, this defensiveness. Sometimes it feels like, if I don’t convince the other person involved that I am RIGHT, everything is going to fall apart. Or at least I’ll fall apart. Or spend the day stewing and trying to figure out HOW to convince them. Talk about relationship-depleting. 
And then I think about when my teen was being defensive. Or my adult children now. Or my spouse. When they get defensive, I get my button pushed, too. I resist just as much as they are resisting. Not very productive. Definitely depleting. Ever felt this way? I’m certain many of you have.
What if you looked at this reactive and negative experience a bit differently; saw it through another lens?
What if, when you felt defensive, you realized you were protecting something important and vulnerable within you?
When your child or partner gets defensive, you recognize they are just protecting something important and vulnerable within them?
Here’s what I notice. When I PAUSE as that button gets pushed in me, and reframe defensiveness as protection of important and vulnerable things, I begin to get curious. What is important to me; what is the vulnerable part of me I need to recognize? Because when I think of vulnerable, I find myself gentling. Softening. Feeling more caring and compassionate.
When I feel defensive, am I actually feeling embarrassed? Sometimes. Feeling that I’m RIGHT…and if so, then why would being WRONG be upsetting to me? Probably because I’d feel less strong. Less self-assured. More self conscious and perhaps a failure. Ahhh…so that is what I’m protecting within me–my self-image and self-worth. I can do something about that. I can feel strong and confident and open and accepting. As I realize what I’m protecting, I can be kind to myself and my feelings. What a difference that can make.
Now instead of getting my button pushed when another gets defensive, I can see beyond that…to what they might be protecting and caring for within themselves. Their uncomfortable feelings. Compassion can more likely lead the way. Or if not compassion, then curiosity, first, which can lead to asking questions. And as we ask questions, we hear more of another’s story. As we hear their story, we find ourselves understanding and perhaps even relating to it, which leads the way to accepting and empathizing. Defensiveness goes by the wayside. THIS is how relationships are built in meaningful and positive ways.
Today, as you face defensive feelings–yours or another’s–consider pausing, first and foremost. Then adjust the lens through which you are seeing whatever the issue is. Look at it through “I’m/they are protecting something important and vulnerable to me/them.” Notice how that feels. And then move forward from there and see what is different, what unfolds. I believe it’ll feel a bit raw at first…and then this amazing connection will emerge–a connection with yourself and the other that leaves both of you feeling more affirmed, heard, understood.
We can turn defensiveness around from relationship-depleting to relationship-building, all by the lens through which we view it.
How cool is that?
With JOY and appreciation,
Alice
Author and Parent Coach
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